Acceptance

Mood : disappointed
Music : Name by the Goo Goo Dolls

never would i have thought in a million years that i would be in the position i am in right now. unfortunately i have no one else to blame but myself for losing control of the situation and allowing the events of the last three days to take place. eventhough i have to admit i feel as though a weight has been lifted off my chest... i'm pretty sure my actions have killed off any little chance i had to make things work.

disappointed i may be... but still relieved at the same time. relieved that at the very least i didn't end up losing more... an outcome i actually anticipated in the first place. you cannot begin to understand my amazement at the calmness and strength i have seen from a certain individual which has allowed me to sit here not feeling totally distraught. but honestly it comes to me as no surprise that she's somewhat unique... doubt if i'll ever meet someone remotely similar.

what will happen next? your guess is just as good as mine since i'm quite in the dark myself. i'm telling myself not to think about it... damage control is badly needed so overthinking the situation may further complicate matters. life isn't a problem to be solved... words i should really try to abide once in a while.

i'm reminded of a post my cousin once wrote... it wouldn't be far fetched to say i share almost all of his feelings and thoughts he had at the time. i've almost convinced myself to stop hoping... but should i?

I guess it's only right to give someone what they need

Even if it's nothing they ever wanted in the first place

I've seen with my own two eyes the hurt and pain

That love causes that's why I won't let you go

Down that road to emotional overdose

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was out grocery shopping with my mom and gramps at Tesco when i saw this price label. can you actually believe that it is suppose to read 'RM95.99'? the person who wrote this probably has an inner ear problem...