most of the time, the right thing is the hardest to do

Mood : sad
Music : Another Perfect Day by American Hi-Fi

it's really such an unfortunate truth, isn't it?

we can procrastinate and delay but sooner or later everyone gets tired of running.

the worst part is knowing that either way, i will still hate myself afterwards.

blast from the past

Mood : frustrated
Music : Next Year by the Foo Fighters

around 10 years ago, i was hooked on this tv series called Ed. this show had a hilarious mixture of sarcasm and also goofiness which kept me tuning in every week. unfortunately most people would not have heard or had the chance to watch this series as its popularity died off quickly after a while and the rest of the show followed suit.

Rena Sofer guest starred in the first season as a smart, career-driven and super hot district attorney. she only made 7 appearances on the show. even then i still had the biggest crush on her.

due to some of my recent misfortunes, i have had a lot of extra time to kill lately which i have to used to re-watch the first season of Ed. suffice to say, it's just like 10 years ago all over again.

Zachary

Mood : sleepy
Music : Don't Fear the Reaper by Pierce the Veil

joy.

there are very few things which i am absolutely sure of nowadays. one thing i can confidently attest to however, is that my brother's little baby boy has brought the utmost joy to my family.

and joy could not have come at a better time. i believe i speak for every one of my family when i say that we could not be more happy to have the little boy join our family.

Hold on tight

Mood : bored
Music : Story of My Life by Automatic Loveletter

i remember crashing into a drain when i had just learnt how to ride a bike. i was coming the down the same slope i had passed plenty of times before. for some reason i was a little too distracted this time around to remember to steer away from the huge ditch in front of me.

i think i probably could've steered away in time but panic gripped me and i was powerless to do anything else besides hold my breath in horror as i knew what was about to happened. luckily for me, i escaped with only a few scratches. nothing broken... including my bike which i managed to ride back home.

that feeling i had where i lost control so i just stopped trying to escape it and braced myself for the worst. i get that quite a bit nowadays. when i don't know how some things are gonna work out. i find i have a tendency to take the lazy way out and watch how things pan out.

after all, it's just so damn demoralizing when you try so damn hard and then realize there's nothing you could've done to change it in the first place.

Dreams

Mood : tired
Music : Homesick at Space Camp by Fall Out Boy

sometimes my limbs move too quickly for my brain to keep up.

i popped open the lid of a small tub of yogurt for breakfast this morning. for some reason my hands were impatient... so it threw the lid away into the bin right next to me. i then proceed to peel back the foil from the yogurt tub when i realize...

where the heck is my spoon?

in the bin... along with the yogurt lid that you just threw away. i quickly look into the bin to try to see if i'm gonna have to eat my yogurt with my fingers. luckily the lid fell on the side of the plastic bag and hadn't fallen in.

oh well... 10 second rule.

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there are some dreams that we really shouldn't be having. it isn't amusing and there isn't the slightest chance that it won't be messing with my head for the rest of the day when i do wake up.

i hope i won't have another again. at least not in this chapter of my life.